I wanted
a divine story.
I didn't use the words 'Greatest story of its time' lightly.
How much do you value your life, and the lives of those around you?
You will not be able to read this story without answering that question
intimately. It takes you beyond entertainment and into the most important
areas of your life, and that's divine, to me.
I've been building towards this series since 1986, over 20 years. It's
seen two earlier incarnations under the title 'ICON DEVIL', and it has
been accepted for publication 5 times by 3 different companies... yet
I never followed through. Some part of me always knew it was a grand,
even divine, story, and that I didn't have the life experience, writing
and art chops, to pull it off the way it needed to be done. I wanted
it to REACH people, really dig in and pull at something inside them.
Yet I didn't want it to be smarmy, spiritual, religious, goody-goody,
or full of my viewpoints or advice. I also didn't want it to be done
by the numbers, just another comic book that's kind of neat but is basically
done for the money and fame. It had to go much deeper than that. Through
another non-comics project of mine, and through my own history, I've
seen how people are changed through tough things in their lives they
must endure, how they win and lose in different ways as a result, and
I wanted to show that cause and effect, to the extreme, through my characters'
lives in this story.
I wanted to take them to the darkest places, show how they cope differently
according to what kind of person they are, show what they lose and what
they win, and show, finally, how each of them - and each of you - can
find full restoration to the purity you were born with.
I wanted
divine art.
I think around 1996, during that murky transitional state early in the
morning where I was waking up, still half asleep and half awake, I had
an image/dream flash in my head for maybe 2 seconds. It was a dream
of an illustration of a girl's face... but I had never seen anything
drawn that way before. It had strange 'holes' all through it, twisting
holes like Swiss cheese... but it wasn't ugly like it sounds when I'm
describing it, it was the most beautiful and strange face I'd ever seen
drawn... even if it was in a dream.
For a dozen years now I'm still shaping my art to look like that face.
It didn't make any 'sense', the details didn't 'mean' anything, but
they were divine. I would sketch a little once in awhile, sometimes
not for months or years, but always get a little closer to what that
face looked like. And each time, after a few minutes drawing, or a few
pages over a week or two, my art would 'lose' this new wonderment and
fall into the old patterns of my old style... and I'd stop drawing again,
and would 'think' for awhile - like months - on how to get my art closer
to that vision. I had to totally let go, and draw anything, any shape
that came to mind, even if it didn't make sense, even if it was pure
expression with no other point. I'd start drawing normal hair, and then
I'd let that hair go into whatever strange shape I felt like. Eventually,
after years, I learned the trick of not drawing ANYTHING 'normally';
people, clothing, hair, vehicles, animals, scenery, buildings, it all
gets the 'treatment', it all looks strange... but beautiful. The most
common comment I get when showing my art now to people is, "What
the heck IS that? I don't get it. But yeah, it's beautiful!"
That's my art, now. You don't have to 'get' it, as long as you like
something about it. Strange but beautiful.
Here's a picture I love, illustrating what I said about strange but
beautiful shapes. Then scroll below to read the synopsis of this series.
A
short SYNOPSIS of ONE LIFE ONE DEATH, a comic maxi-series
and graphic novel:
The Earth's mass-suicide initiative has begun, the brainchild of one
man who determined that overpopulation is the cause of every threat
to our future existence. His idea? That every person decide for themselves
how valuable their input is to the world... and if they think that they're
not contributing much, nor think they ever will, then to voluntarily
end their own lives, to 'kull' the human race of the weak and less useful,
and make room for future generations to have enough resources to survive.
A person of uncommon foresight and conscience, he spearheads this movement
and becomes the first to take his own life for the cause, in the hopes
that a less-populated planet will provide a better chance for those
to come, including his own young son.
But before he does this, he sets into motion events that will test the
handful of beings he's gathered around him in his world-powerful corporation...
to test THEIR values of their own lives and futures.
But something goes wrong with his martyr-like plan.
His suicide attempt is thwarted, reversed, through no power of his own,
and he is forced to LIVE. To WANT to live.
He is forced to return to a world that now thinks he is a hypocrite,
a coward and liar, once they see him still alive... yet they believe
in his original movement and are dying in droves to follow that cause.
And the 'tests' he set in motion thinking they would help those amazing
beings he'd gathered around him, go wildly beyond any control.
The initiative he began has taken on its own life, though he is now
considered a faker and false prophet who merely chanced upon a good
idea. His old friends are being pushed to their limits, having their
darkest days due to events he set into motion. His organization is crumbling,
even his floating city-above-the-city comes crashing down...
And amid this chaos, he finds clarity, he finds the truth of his life
and the falseness of his original motives, he finds the tools to bring
understanding, forgiveness, and restitution to himself, to those around
him, to a world that has crashed into confusion and despair.